You chose allegiance to seek acceptance more than anything else from a foreign population.

You chose allegiance to seek acceptance more than anything else from a foreign population. You had no allegiance to your own skin or your own community or your own family. You chose appearance in that allegiance to the foreign population. You left your pit more than 40 years ago. You were given a job as a police sergeant in the paradise and were earning $10,000.00(USD) equivalent. You had nice weddings and honey moons and then you did a bank robbery with your cousin who is not really your cousin but an orphan and who said you would both die equal and he killed your dog. He told you to eat it with him only because he was jealous. You agreed with him and his demonic jealousy from that day forward and that is when the demon of jealousy got a hold of you. You sent him all your savings from Indiana where you went eventually to live and thought your jealous tiny cousin would put it on the mansion near Slatnessville. You were a giant to him and all he did was to tie you down like John Bunyan or Gulliver in Gulliver's travels.   He never did put you on the home. You lived in the "Tillwell" house at the top of the hill in "Shivingyouselfdale" that was called "Backawall" by the ignorant. But, Tillwell was really nice; nice home for which a good man would be thankful. You came to Indiana and you could have finished your GED in two years at night school and then you could have gone to college part time for four years to finish medical technology and then you could have gone to university to finish your degree in three years part time. With another three years part time, you could have had a Masters in Science. Then, you could have gone to medical school with a solid grade in organic chemistry. But, you decided to pull down your children who watched you reading something at the dinner table for years. You asked them to paint and draw things for your projects and then you said you never graduated really but sucked to get the C. They were soo proud of you and then you said they had to go to post secondary education as well. Then, after they graduated many hours away from you out of town where you did not support them very much but tried to trick them to drop out early, you wanted to say you wrote the work although you were a full time employee somewhere running the subway system underground in downtown Milwaukee with the green eyed relative who cooked the chips and ribtips. Then, she said you should not come again because you do not love your children. You ask but do not receive in that you reject what you asked for in your ungratefulness. Your father got you the job and thenyou decided you wanted to go the new world but you never respected him. So, be thankful at least once. Believe your choice. Be thankful.

You could choose big but there is nothing wrong with humble.