Did you spit in the baby's nose? Do you meditate all day during your daily activities and say " I kill myself" instead of "I love myself"?

Did you spit in the baby's nose?  Do you meditate all day during your daily activities for the last 50 years and say " I kill myself" instead of "I love myself"?  You were taught to say " I kill myself" by the Asianish people who owned the stalls in the West Indies; possibly in Jamaica.  They would say " I kill myself" audibly in the 1950's and you would hear them as you would walk through the markets.  They also tell you to say "ooh ooh ooh ooh" when you dance as if you are a monkey.