The neighbor's are smiling as you peel your children's skin for them with a machete and their little Johnny is now apparently yours so you will put him up as yours for the job at your bible factory. Your masters taught you well about how to be a king. You must have read Shaka Zulu written by a European man for West Indian consumption. Shaka Zulu read the bible.; especially the part about children and family.

 You may win the ego competition in your family since you created the competition on your son's 18th birthday or on graduation day. In fact you started it at 14 when he became fertile and then you fed him foods that would continually make you feel more like a man. Thank God for his Uncle and the school who told you to stop it since you only intended to call him gay one day if he doesn't kill you. This is your culture. But, look at your neighbors, their children and grand children, nieces and nephews and ask if you are winning anything since you are looking the race against them using a real yardstick in the measurement of things as they may be. You created a faux family using other people's relatives and maybe you had your reason. But, do you have descendants or relatives that will participate in the Island's oligarchy for another 2 to 10 generations? Do you have any relatives who can speak of your memory who attended upon you while you navigated life and foiled the shadows of rejection and/or acceptance? God is not mocked but you never know what people are really saying while they smile at you and hug you approvingly. You are such a good man even though Johnny got lower grades, used your son's or relatives bible answers in school and diluted the dye at the bible factory but you don't want to believe it since you wrote the rules of the game.